Money money money

Somehow I feel like I need to vent this out, and maybe, someone will read this and learn not to bring the topic up.
When Emma (Lil'E) was born, I figured money wouldn't be an issue. I thought so, because in Finland you're under the impression that the government helps you with finances when times are tough. It's true, but sometimes that money just isn't enough. Anyways, I hoped once Emma was a few months old we could move to our own place and not need to cram into my mom's apartment. My hopes were quickly crushed once I started calculating our expenses. Many people ask how much money we get from the Finnish government (Kela). We qualify for max 759e. Awesome. Now if we were to pay rent we'd qualify for the government to pay some of it, but i'd still end up paying about 200e. After that theres electricity, water, insurance, phone, internet, buscard (when school starts), gym (contract ends in november), maybe daycare (30e), diapers, cleaning & sanitary products (50e), Emma's food (200e), Emma's clothes (50e). That makes roughly 628e. So 759-200-628= -69. Wohoo I have NEGATIVE 69e to buy myself food every month. It's quite the feeling knowing I wont be able to afford healthcare, going for coffee, going out, going to the movies or even taking my kid to the zoo.
So when you decide to question my comment "we can't afford to move out" better keep it to yourself. You think I don't want to give Emma her own room? Or furnish a home to our likings? It makes me feel like such a failure of a mother because I can't give us our own home.